Am I alive? I can’t breathe, Ma !!!

Koi tumi, ami kothai, eta ki holo, uff matha betha korche.(literally translated- where are you? Where am I? What happened? Oh! My head is aching.) My world is spinning. This help me. Oh I am alive. It was a Dream then, was it? Yes. Ufff, I am saved.

Dear readers,

2 days ago, I had a weird dreams. I was a data investigator in the year 2024, and I was investigating the murder 2 women. Someone was calling them up and manipulating them into beleiving them, they were scammers. But then, things got deep, it was found out later that they also did illegal activities like selling drugs and people who got to know about them where threatened. These women were social reformers, who were not afraid of them. After quite a lot of investigations, we arrested 3 men. But then soon after they escaped the prison. Strange occurrences were happening to the team. Some were pretty scared, some could not speak and others were simply lost into the blues. I was 15 years old and only I and the head investigator, Mrs. Dutta, was alive out of the 7 of us. Then we again found them and trace them. One of them was escaping when I followed him with a bicycle. But then the scenery became more recognisable to me, it was my previous house and it’s locality and then I saw places I visited. Later I couldn’t breathe and felt quite light in weight and as if gravity was letting go of me. I lost the balance of my cycle, my head was spinning and the world was rolling, I jumped so high at times and at times so heavy and pulled to ground, then I was atthe top of a high building and without my will or intention, I jumped of it, and then all was blurry and tilted and it felt so real, the gushing of wind and frictions past my ears, the scenes that I was seeing, the speed of me falling and then I was so afraid of that falling noise that I closed my ears and started to scream but I couldn’t as if my voice was being blown away, being muffled. I was so scared that I could see my end and feel that I was dying, in fear and cold sense, I closed my eyes, I couldn’t take it anymore. I suddenly woke up breathing heavily,the time on the clock was 4:23 pm IST. I was really scared, I could feel warm tears rolling down my cold cheeks. I saw my sister sitting on the study table and drawing a picture. Life came back to me in an instant. I remembered now how Rabindranath had written and that it is true.

“Phurai phele abar bhore cho, Jibano nab nab.”

Thanks for reading, take care. Stay safe.

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Divyosmi Goswami: A digital nomad's journal wandering through the physical and cyber city discovering himself.

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Divyosmi Goswami

Divyosmi Goswami: A digital nomad's journal wandering through the physical and cyber city discovering himself.