11 December and me

Dear readers,

From around 9 December, a gush of wind runs down my spine, a special effect takes place in me. I become more happy than I should. And considerably there happens a lot in me, and a lot for which I can be happy. I always try to use the brains to try and make the best gift than ever or maybe than the last year. In December many people I love and care for are born, most prominent of them are my mother, my Dida, former best friend (guess who? Read my blogs to know who), and also my friend who supports me a lot since her first time in my school.

But the reason is far far special. On 11th of December, it is my mother’s birthday, yes the big day.

I always from my childhood have made my mother, many cards, paintings, fun write-ups and very rarely intricate crafts. But these recent time I have exhausted myself into so many things that I feel kind of overwhelmed to have so much at hand, and certainly this a drain a lot of myself. So I don’t make such simple things, happy things anymore. It has a lot of overthinking involved.

This year, suddenly when speaking with my sister I felt that I should write this article.

We all are villains in someone’s story. -Joker

I truly believe that, and this also shows the intricate and complicated features of a human being, but after all we have 3 faces. One that if for people to admire, one for our kin and close ones to behave upon, and one that we hide from all, the secretive, lucrative, colourless, ignorant and neglected self, that only we know, no one can ever understand it.

There are many different ways my mother’s story will be narrated. There will be many exaggerations of truth, many velvet lies and unknown facts that will all fade in the face of history, after all in this vast universe, we are mere living creatures all ignorant and nothing compared to the vastness of knowledge unexplored.

I will try to account about my mother, as much genuinely as I may without much exaggeration. I am good at understanding people but no one can understand my mother completely, trust me, only He and only He is the second being who understands my mother after her.

My mother is an interesting character. She is very good at academics, she was a gem in her academic years and got great marks moreover learnt everything by her heart. She is a teacher. She is a very good cook, and you will feel close to the gentle warmth on a winter morning, close to your soul when you eat her food. She sings well, she has artistic temperament and skills that cna easily compared to any modern artist and she could have been a world renowned artist. She is a great manager, she accounts for all transactions small or big, she manages all home chores, she manages our studies, she manages her work, and she is the backbone of us. She is really beautiful. She doesn’t need loads of makeup or jewelleries to adorn her beauty or scale or tone it, she is naturally pretty. She is the most patient listener you may get to listen to you. She is the most hard-working person I ever have seen. It is funny how sometimes I can compare her to professor Trilokeshor Shonku’s RoBo. She is my inspiration. She has always taught me to respect women. If I am any what human I am now, in this moment, I own it to my parents, especially my mother. she is such a revolutionary leader. She has so great leadership skills, she has great communication skills. She is just so intelligent, she knows every answer to a suspense and she is right 98% of time. She can crack any and every problem. She is so witty. She is just a great problem solver. I sometimes get annoyed at she predicting the suspense so perfectly, I feel like I am re-watching a movie.

My mother has a special power in her eyes, she can do magic. When you are guilty of something, you generally try to escape eye contact, and her eyes can pierce through your moving eyes. She is power of see behind your mind, when you look into her eyes, it feels that she is gonna uproot all the fake masks of yours and see the self you hide, as if she can read your mind and see inside your heart and read all that is written in plain English. She is very good at assessing character of a person for their speech and apperance, behaviour as well. I have noticed that it takes a strong presence of mind and calm and a very intelligent and diplomatic mindset to stay calm and keep maintaining eye contact with my mother. One glance of her is enough to melt your masks away. She is so simple and honest. In all world, and from all Gods I can’t understand 2 simple things:-

• How is my Dida so honest? 100% honest and simple!!!!!!! No one who comes after me would want to beleive there was someone like my Dida.
• How is my mother so intelligent and honest, though so simple? Not complicated! Not bad at all! No politician yet has a strong sense of politics and diplomacy.

My mother is not at all complicated, and I have never seen her plot weave of conspiracy against anyone. She has such diplomatic mindset that she could run for elections. She is so honest, that even her shadow appears like a false to me. She is not god fearing, she is god loving, she respects god from love for Him and the beleive in Him. And she can foresee future.

She has always predicted whenever I was about to fall in some problem, or pit. Or whenever I was gonna get hurt in love or there was some problem. She was right and it hurts me everytime I remember than I did not beleive her. I sometimes act all so weird and ruthless with my family members and especially her. It comes from prolonged loneliness and love of self isolation, that I beleive that even after having so many people with me, I am alone and I sometimes enjoy the loneliness because I have been hurt many I times I tried to change this. I am really sorry for that. I am asking sorry to my mother, and my sister. The 2 people who suffered the most from it.

In history, my family members will all have different types of believes about me and my mother. But I will be grateful that He destined me as her son. I got this opportunity to be her son and see her from so close, and I am also a witness of all the fights she fought, with her own family, for different reasons and with different people.

My mother has powers to defeat all evil, and she has been till this date saving me from all harsh realities. She burned herself down, her golden period of life, and of career but we ungrateful folks forgot all she did and forgot everything she did. I will never forgive my family members for this, but my mother always tells me to not act in the manner I did cause they are my elders. She is so forgiving, intelligent, kind, motherly, loving, caring, affectionate, diplomatic, humane, and humble that I hold her and see her in no position less than that of Ma Durga. And I all when I act rudely with her, I also insult my god, and god doesn’t forget neither forgive.

My mother does sometimes get very angry and sometimes when I don’t study or do something that I shouldn’t and when I waste my time. But it for my own good.

My mother always says — God always keeps scores, he neither forgets not forgives. All will get their karma back. Who am I to take revenge?

May god gift her all the happiness and grant her all the wishes she deserves. May she always be happy. My mother has suffered a lot, may these coming years be years she lives life to the fullest and fulfills all her dreams. May god instill in her all the motivation she needs to reach her goals and do what she seeks to. May He shower my mother with good health and prosperity.

I am full of words but don’t know how to turn thoughts into words, so maybe this is it for all. I know I have missed a lot but just as I said, I can’t decrypt her completely yet.

Mummum, all the very very very happy birthday, you are the best. I love you so so much. You are great. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Thank you for reading.